Trackspin: Bee Gees - How Deep Is Your Love.

Don't know why I'm listening to this, haha. Decided to go get the song after listening to John Frusciante play it live at a concert alone during a break. =)

I don't know if I'm the one causing myself to feel the way I do about stuff. Maybe I just have poor problem-solving/management skills.

Spoke to Kelvin and Shawn this morning online, with regards to how SISPEC is going for them.. Kelvin's suffering in there, 4km run in vest slack nearly daily or something like that, while Shawn's enjoying his time in there, being in a welfare company, haha. Sounds like fun though. One thing Shawn and I agreed on though: HOW NICE~~ if only we could all remain in BMTC2 Taurus COY for our 2 years. Times like those will never come back to us again. I guess it's true that BMT is the time most enjoyed in NS, because of the trainings and how we bonded over every little thing together as a platoon and as a section. I truly miss my sectionmates and platoonmates. There goes our chance to play together as a group, Mark, Jerry, Rizal, Terence and myself. Perhaps someday we'll manage to catch up and jam.

I know that it's never easy to let go. I've been through that more than once. BMT was hard to let go off, once we got our individual vocations. I do admit that I'm enjoying my time in MPTS so far, which is only a bare 3 days, but it's been great, having Sophan and getting to know the other people in my new section in MPTS. I'm definitely looking forward to this time spent together with them, until we POP on the 29th of Feb. I believe our memories are carved out how we want them to be.

It's coming to a year and a month. I'm thoroughly depressed that yet again, we won't be able to spend the day together due to circumstances. Maybe you'll read this and realise that it's that date again. Maybe not. -shrugs- I just wish I could turn back time. Unfortunately, that's just not possible, not in our time and age. -sighs-

Feeling troubled isn't a good thing at all.

I don't know, I feel as though I'm losing touch with my faith again. Maybe it's the fact I haven't managed to attend any weekday masses at all since I enlisted, maybe it's the fact I haven't been down for cyf though I doubt that's it, maybe due to the fact that I haven't seen my second family, ED, as much as I'd like, not being able to be down for practices and all. I miss the group. I miss playing my bass alongside to the drumbeats from Joachim/Arnold, to the clean acoustics of Ben, the steady rhythm of Gil, the screaming solos of Eugene and Boomy, the clear although soft notes and chords from Sam, the voices of Jac, Adeline, Angie, and most definitely Val, the basslines from Jeremy when I'm not playing, the presence of Darren, Bernard, Pau and Chris. I miss them all. I absolutely miss Battle For Charity last year, December 17th at TP Central CC. The songlist was absolutely fabulous and I miss practicing the songlist as a group, working out everything. =)

Sam invited me to join his band to jam.. Maybe I'll take it up, maybe not. See how things go, and see how I manage time and what I acknowledge of myself on bass. They do alot of RHCP so it'll be something I love, but that's a different thing from being capable of playing like Flea. Hehs. Gotta get back on track with Inez and Adela. Fleadom of expression. Muahaha.

Alright, think this post is done with for now. I'm getting tired and I've yet to finish my fries from dinner. Bleagh.