Trackspin: Maroon 5 - She Will Be Loved.

This was playing while I was at range today, along with Hoobastank's The Reason and Counting Crows' Accidentally In Love. I miss playing those songs. Especially the last one mentioned.

Lived up to being a marksman, missed only 1 shot for SAR today. Feel a sense of accomplishment, coz that only miss was because I've a slight case of night blindness.

6 months in the army can change a lot of things. I think I've changed, though not necessarily for the better. I've seen the dirty side of things in here, the way people play power games, those disgusting political bullshit and the crap that goes "I'm older than you are and I have more experience so just bow down to me and accept my instructions as though I'm your God" or some sort of that nonsense. People throwing their weight around due to themselves being superior in rank, but therefore proving how much they lack common sense and any kind of intellect at all. I've felt this too many times.

6 months gone, another 18 more to go. I'm suffering in silence, somewhat, at my vocation, which doesn't allow me to do anything I've planned for my life, like taking my license, having more time for baby and family, as well as playing for Eternal Dawn. I've had to put a stop to everything. This is what I get for trying my best to be what I can be in Basic, this is what I get for trying to help and lead my peers now. Nobody should see nor hear this, but I'm just penning my thoughts here, thoughts that have never been said. I've only been repaid with shit. So why should I try to give my best anymore. Nothing seems worth it already. Not anymore.