Just how long before this goes down?
Bits & Pieces
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Trackspin: Azure Ray - Sleep.
I'm just lying in bunk now after duty. It's 24hr QRF day for me. Haven't had a good sleep the past nights. It's really getting difficult.
If you're ever reading this still, I need to talk to you, and soon.
My mind's kind of made up now. All that's left is for me to keep lying to myself that everything will be okay. Perhaps in time to come, it will. Perhaps. I honestly don't know anymore.
Maybe it's for the better, but it's just escapism yet again, and now, it's added with lies. One side, the lies have been told, the other, has to be told for a long while I expect.
I feel like I should change away from blogger. Should I? Just leave things for good and start afresh, if I could. Reading my past posts, I don't know if I've changed much. But things sure have.
You said I'm your best friend and always will be. Perhaps it's your perception, but would you lie like that to your best friend? Or would you hesitate to confide, or rather, not confide in me? Thanks for showing where I stand in your life thus far. Thanks for pushing the blame everywhere else and saying things like we drifted, when it was mostly a one-way street for quite some time, saying things don't feel the same. I would have much rather went back to the past. And if there's any regrets about our friendship, perhaps you'll one day know.
got around to thinking @ 11:40 AM
I'm just lying in bunk now after duty. It's 24hr QRF day for me. Haven't had a good sleep the past nights. It's really getting difficult.
If you're ever reading this still, I need to talk to you, and soon.
My mind's kind of made up now. All that's left is for me to keep lying to myself that everything will be okay. Perhaps in time to come, it will. Perhaps. I honestly don't know anymore.
Maybe it's for the better, but it's just escapism yet again, and now, it's added with lies. One side, the lies have been told, the other, has to be told for a long while I expect.
I feel like I should change away from blogger. Should I? Just leave things for good and start afresh, if I could. Reading my past posts, I don't know if I've changed much. But things sure have.
You said I'm your best friend and always will be. Perhaps it's your perception, but would you lie like that to your best friend? Or would you hesitate to confide, or rather, not confide in me? Thanks for showing where I stand in your life thus far. Thanks for pushing the blame everywhere else and saying things like we drifted, when it was mostly a one-way street for quite some time, saying things don't feel the same. I would have much rather went back to the past. And if there's any regrets about our friendship, perhaps you'll one day know.
got around to thinking @ 11:40 AM
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