Just how long before this goes down?
Bits & Pieces
Saturday, July 19, 2008
Trackspin: The Fray - Hundred.
So it's been a year. And so far, I think it's a year I want to forget, if I can. I'm just so tired of everything. Spoke to HuGang before booking out yesterday when we were in the gym and I really miss my BMT days. The friends, bunkmates, platoonmates, commanders, it all left a very strong impression of what friends mean to me, in times of need and when we go through all that shit together. And last Saturday, I just remembered something which Iswan said to me. I tend to work out when I'm in a really bad mood. I've realised that too. In BMT, after field camp, we had this big fight and I wound up doing pull-ups till 1-2am in the morning and Iswan wound up worried and wanted to ask if anything was wrong. He lay down on my bed and wound up getting snapped at by me to bugger off. I'm sorry for that, but I guess emotions get out of me easily and I'm not good at keeping things inside. My temper sucks for sure.
An alternative outlet so far has been basketball so if I'm playing a really fast-paced/fierce game of ball, please pardon me, probably me taking things out on my body again. Testimony to working out when I'm angry came this week I guess. Out of 4 days at the refinery, I hit the gym on 3 days. I feel accomplished but tired at the same time. Perhaps its just my way of running away from it all, by tiring myself out like that and at least gaining something out of it.
So tell me what I heard before was all just a lie and that I didn't see what I did. Coz if it's true, that's seriously fucked up, coming from you.
got around to thinking @ 10:26 AM
So it's been a year. And so far, I think it's a year I want to forget, if I can. I'm just so tired of everything. Spoke to HuGang before booking out yesterday when we were in the gym and I really miss my BMT days. The friends, bunkmates, platoonmates, commanders, it all left a very strong impression of what friends mean to me, in times of need and when we go through all that shit together. And last Saturday, I just remembered something which Iswan said to me. I tend to work out when I'm in a really bad mood. I've realised that too. In BMT, after field camp, we had this big fight and I wound up doing pull-ups till 1-2am in the morning and Iswan wound up worried and wanted to ask if anything was wrong. He lay down on my bed and wound up getting snapped at by me to bugger off. I'm sorry for that, but I guess emotions get out of me easily and I'm not good at keeping things inside. My temper sucks for sure.
An alternative outlet so far has been basketball so if I'm playing a really fast-paced/fierce game of ball, please pardon me, probably me taking things out on my body again. Testimony to working out when I'm angry came this week I guess. Out of 4 days at the refinery, I hit the gym on 3 days. I feel accomplished but tired at the same time. Perhaps its just my way of running away from it all, by tiring myself out like that and at least gaining something out of it.
So tell me what I heard before was all just a lie and that I didn't see what I did. Coz if it's true, that's seriously fucked up, coming from you.
got around to thinking @ 10:26 AM
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