Just how long before this goes down?
Bits & Pieces
Thursday, September 25, 2008
Trackspin: Sister Hazel - Best I'll Ever Be.
Lyrics hit me like a roadblock stopping a motorcycle while I was on the bus back from APD last night. I guess sometimes, it's songs like that which cause me to find it such a bitch to let go of stuff. Darn it.
I think I should try to cuss less often. Perhaps it's having an adverse effect on me too, amidst deployment and all, whatwith Nuxed and some of my other platoonmates. We truly are turning into infantrymen with how we cuss and swear, instead of being the MPs we're supposed to be, maybe. But yeah, I guess it's natural somewhat because it's just so typical to be hearing all the swearing around in camp and on duty. But I shall try to make a conscious effort to do it less.
I'm tired as hell yet again. Max Payne-ed till 4am, slept around 5-5+am and Tricia messaged at close to 6 but I was already knocked out in bed. Finally woke up at 1pm but on the bright side, it was quite a peaceful sleep without waking up at all. I've been having trouble sleeping in camp, usually sleeping at 1am, waking at 2, sleeping again at 230, waking at 3, sleeping, waking at 3, sleeping, waking at 3+, sleeping, waking at 3+ yet again, multiple times, then sleeping at 4+ and waking to find it's time to get up at 445am. That's the life so far for my past 4 days. Oh, asides from duty and playing Star Wars: Force Unleashed on KS and Kor's PSP. Seriously thinking of getting one to while time away but I think I will put that money aside for my amp and IEMs. My aim is to get my stuff by December. I'm selling away my GoVibe to Keith so hopefully he'll love it like I did. Minimal scratching despite not using any covers/sleeves for the past few months of using it. Love it man. But it's time I moved on, as with other stuff too. Still contemplating on either the Voyager, Tomahawk, Hornet. Also trying to decide on UM2/UM56, TF10P, SF5EB or something else. It's so frustrating because I've to go audition them all over again with each amp to get the idea in my head of which I want.
I feel like I'm extremely inadequate for everything I'm in position to do. I'm not good enough to play bass, because of fundamentals. People say that if you truly love something, you'd go all out to learn more about it and such. Could it be that I love music so much more than making it? I hope not, because I've found a place where I can pour out my emotions and feelings somewhat, through playing. Although it can be rather sad at times, it does help somewhat perhaps, when I'm feeling down or frustrated. Not as good as basketball/badminton, but it does the job still.. I'm also not the best I could be, in what I'm doing right now. I've been coming to feel frustrated easily at deployment issues. I really need to learn to control my emotions and feelings better. Perhaps to conceal them and find a way around my problems instead of moping around. But is it a bad thing to be expressive of how you feel..?
Alright, I've to go get some practice in for the songs we're doing for practice tonight. Tricia's coming down to observe also, haha. Hmm, hopefully we'll manage to get the 5 songs for AYD08 down pat soon. Only 2 pracs to do it, plus 1 full rehearsal. I truly pray that it goes well and that the youth will feel Him through what we play.
It's amazing that sometimes, I feel so weird. I'm possibly the furthest person you'd expect to be close to my faith and yet, I'm so involved in church. And somehow, in contrast to that, I'm not one who's especially prayerful or a good example to the youth. I just feel out of place. The living oxymoron comes to life again.
Still liking the song in my previous post's trackspin. Thanks for the song. Managed to brighten up my day with it.
got around to thinking @ 2:31 PM
Lyrics hit me like a roadblock stopping a motorcycle while I was on the bus back from APD last night. I guess sometimes, it's songs like that which cause me to find it such a bitch to let go of stuff. Darn it.
I think I should try to cuss less often. Perhaps it's having an adverse effect on me too, amidst deployment and all, whatwith Nuxed and some of my other platoonmates. We truly are turning into infantrymen with how we cuss and swear, instead of being the MPs we're supposed to be, maybe. But yeah, I guess it's natural somewhat because it's just so typical to be hearing all the swearing around in camp and on duty. But I shall try to make a conscious effort to do it less.
I'm tired as hell yet again. Max Payne-ed till 4am, slept around 5-5+am and Tricia messaged at close to 6 but I was already knocked out in bed. Finally woke up at 1pm but on the bright side, it was quite a peaceful sleep without waking up at all. I've been having trouble sleeping in camp, usually sleeping at 1am, waking at 2, sleeping again at 230, waking at 3, sleeping, waking at 3, sleeping, waking at 3+, sleeping, waking at 3+ yet again, multiple times, then sleeping at 4+ and waking to find it's time to get up at 445am. That's the life so far for my past 4 days. Oh, asides from duty and playing Star Wars: Force Unleashed on KS and Kor's PSP. Seriously thinking of getting one to while time away but I think I will put that money aside for my amp and IEMs. My aim is to get my stuff by December. I'm selling away my GoVibe to Keith so hopefully he'll love it like I did. Minimal scratching despite not using any covers/sleeves for the past few months of using it. Love it man. But it's time I moved on, as with other stuff too. Still contemplating on either the Voyager, Tomahawk, Hornet. Also trying to decide on UM2/UM56, TF10P, SF5EB or something else. It's so frustrating because I've to go audition them all over again with each amp to get the idea in my head of which I want.
I feel like I'm extremely inadequate for everything I'm in position to do. I'm not good enough to play bass, because of fundamentals. People say that if you truly love something, you'd go all out to learn more about it and such. Could it be that I love music so much more than making it? I hope not, because I've found a place where I can pour out my emotions and feelings somewhat, through playing. Although it can be rather sad at times, it does help somewhat perhaps, when I'm feeling down or frustrated. Not as good as basketball/badminton, but it does the job still.. I'm also not the best I could be, in what I'm doing right now. I've been coming to feel frustrated easily at deployment issues. I really need to learn to control my emotions and feelings better. Perhaps to conceal them and find a way around my problems instead of moping around. But is it a bad thing to be expressive of how you feel..?
Alright, I've to go get some practice in for the songs we're doing for practice tonight. Tricia's coming down to observe also, haha. Hmm, hopefully we'll manage to get the 5 songs for AYD08 down pat soon. Only 2 pracs to do it, plus 1 full rehearsal. I truly pray that it goes well and that the youth will feel Him through what we play.
It's amazing that sometimes, I feel so weird. I'm possibly the furthest person you'd expect to be close to my faith and yet, I'm so involved in church. And somehow, in contrast to that, I'm not one who's especially prayerful or a good example to the youth. I just feel out of place. The living oxymoron comes to life again.
Still liking the song in my previous post's trackspin. Thanks for the song. Managed to brighten up my day with it.
got around to thinking @ 2:31 PM
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