Just how long before this goes down?
Bits & Pieces
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Trackspin: Rob Thomas - Little Wonders.
Another nice song received lately. The lyrics are quite nice. It's nice having a good mix of slower songs and some upbeat stuff on the iPod, going through your day.
Pardon me if this post seems random and if my thoughts seem to be jumping all over the place, which they are.
I've been thinking about some stuff lately. I haven't exactly been down for practice in awhile, I feel very out of touch and all. Maybe I'm just not truly cut out with planning stuff too but yeah, Thursday left me a great deal to ponder on. This year, with Raymond leaving us, I'd have to say that I'm quite regretful that I didn't manage to spend too much time in ED with him around due to NS. He's brought with him a wealth of knowledge and experience to us and he's shared it all so generously with us. I think ED has been truly blessed in some ways that we've had Arnold and Ray as our drummers thus far. I just hope that I'll manage to get the time to fit back into ED and all. Coming back to feeling out of touch or left out, I don't know if that's one of the reason our two younger ones aren't around too often and if that's what's holding them back from doing their job to the best of their abilities maybe. I just hope that this group which has managed to become a second family to me manages to stick things out together through thick and thin like we've always managed to thus far.
It hasn't been a pleasant last couple of months in some ways, but it has also been the time of my life in others. Reflecting a little on '08, I can't help but wonder if things could have worked out better somehow instead of me being where I am today. Would it have made me a better person? Would I still have kept my closer friends out of some aspects of my life too? Sometimes, I feel that some friendships I have are just a superficial bond. It's just being acquaintances, not truly knowing more about the person, not truly making the effort to know more about that person. I guess there's only so much we each can do to reach out to our friends, but I just can't help but feel that way. Friendships over the past couple of years that have degraded so much that I barely talk to these people at all anymore. Perhaps it's just due to circumstances, everybody having their own lives to lead and all, but honestly, I'd say that quite a few of these could have been avoided completely. Perhaps it's also because of our own individual maturity levels and also how we each deal with situations and problems in our lives too, driving people to slowly drift from each other. I don't know, I think I'm starting to babble a little here, haha. So yes, I think I haven't exactly lived a semi-charmed life the past year.
However, the last couple of months have also proved that perhaps, when you lose something that has very much become a part of your life, there's always something else that comes along and supports you when you're at your worst. Perhaps it's just that once you reach the bottom, there's nowhere to go but up. But in this case, maybe I'd choose to see it as God not letting you take on any load that you can't bear. He said He wouldn't let our burden get one ounce too heavy for us to bear. And thus, I shall take it as that. Someone once said this out to me too. And that person was one whom I respected. But as per above, the slow dissolving of friendships, degrading naturally, or unnaturally in this case perhaps. Choice could be one reason though. But when all is said and done, I'd still thank you for having been a part of my life. Amidst all the events in '08, I think I've managed to grow up a little and learn more about myself. I mean, isn't that part of life? Learning more about yourself and perhaps becoming a better person? I don't know if I have indeed become a better person after everything, though in all honesty, I doubt so, but I can say that I've matured some. I've learnt that I shouldn't take some people for granted and that the people closest in your heart can also be the ones to hurt you most. The past two years have shown me that much with my family and all. I've come to learn to be more thankful for my closest friends and all they've done for me through the years. You all know who you are, I hope.
All in all, I just pray that '09 will be a much better year than '08, for everyone. I won't say I hope that things will change for the better for sure, coz I think that's a given. However, I would want to say this. Everybody has their choices and that means you can choose your path in life. Everybody has that choice and the choice to do good or bad, but I think the most important thing is that you choose how you view your life. You can choose to see things in a positive light or a negative light. I've always been able to find a way to make things sound better when people talk to me about their problems and situations, consoling them and whatnot, but I've never been able to do the same for myself, never affording myself to see that light at the end of the tunnel. Maybe this year, I'll make that change in myself and finally learn to see my life in a better light.
I don't know why I did this post, I truly don't. But I had a bad dream last night and maybe that caused me to reflect a little bit on the past and all that's happened. It doesn't stop the hurt and anger, but these emotions can be curbed and restrained. It isn't necessary to let such emotions and feelings get the better of you. I guess I should learn to try channeling such negativity into more productive means and using it to focus instead. Or at least much more so than I've been able to the past few months, without letting my mind stray and flare.
For those looking for my usual posts of my daily doings, I'm sorry for the lack of it, though I'm sure some people will deem this post as "emo". But trust me, it isn't. I just realized that I'm really lucky for what I have. And I also realized that I should treasure what I have more. Both the tangible and intangible.
Alright, I've got to get ready for book-in tonight. Training schedule this week sounds bad but I'm sure I'll survive. I always have.
Mimosa: Study hard okay! ((:
Udders: WHEN ARE WE MEETING NEXT! ((:
got around to thinking @ 11:38 AM
Another nice song received lately. The lyrics are quite nice. It's nice having a good mix of slower songs and some upbeat stuff on the iPod, going through your day.
Pardon me if this post seems random and if my thoughts seem to be jumping all over the place, which they are.
I've been thinking about some stuff lately. I haven't exactly been down for practice in awhile, I feel very out of touch and all. Maybe I'm just not truly cut out with planning stuff too but yeah, Thursday left me a great deal to ponder on. This year, with Raymond leaving us, I'd have to say that I'm quite regretful that I didn't manage to spend too much time in ED with him around due to NS. He's brought with him a wealth of knowledge and experience to us and he's shared it all so generously with us. I think ED has been truly blessed in some ways that we've had Arnold and Ray as our drummers thus far. I just hope that I'll manage to get the time to fit back into ED and all. Coming back to feeling out of touch or left out, I don't know if that's one of the reason our two younger ones aren't around too often and if that's what's holding them back from doing their job to the best of their abilities maybe. I just hope that this group which has managed to become a second family to me manages to stick things out together through thick and thin like we've always managed to thus far.
It hasn't been a pleasant last couple of months in some ways, but it has also been the time of my life in others. Reflecting a little on '08, I can't help but wonder if things could have worked out better somehow instead of me being where I am today. Would it have made me a better person? Would I still have kept my closer friends out of some aspects of my life too? Sometimes, I feel that some friendships I have are just a superficial bond. It's just being acquaintances, not truly knowing more about the person, not truly making the effort to know more about that person. I guess there's only so much we each can do to reach out to our friends, but I just can't help but feel that way. Friendships over the past couple of years that have degraded so much that I barely talk to these people at all anymore. Perhaps it's just due to circumstances, everybody having their own lives to lead and all, but honestly, I'd say that quite a few of these could have been avoided completely. Perhaps it's also because of our own individual maturity levels and also how we each deal with situations and problems in our lives too, driving people to slowly drift from each other. I don't know, I think I'm starting to babble a little here, haha. So yes, I think I haven't exactly lived a semi-charmed life the past year.
However, the last couple of months have also proved that perhaps, when you lose something that has very much become a part of your life, there's always something else that comes along and supports you when you're at your worst. Perhaps it's just that once you reach the bottom, there's nowhere to go but up. But in this case, maybe I'd choose to see it as God not letting you take on any load that you can't bear. He said He wouldn't let our burden get one ounce too heavy for us to bear. And thus, I shall take it as that. Someone once said this out to me too. And that person was one whom I respected. But as per above, the slow dissolving of friendships, degrading naturally, or unnaturally in this case perhaps. Choice could be one reason though. But when all is said and done, I'd still thank you for having been a part of my life. Amidst all the events in '08, I think I've managed to grow up a little and learn more about myself. I mean, isn't that part of life? Learning more about yourself and perhaps becoming a better person? I don't know if I have indeed become a better person after everything, though in all honesty, I doubt so, but I can say that I've matured some. I've learnt that I shouldn't take some people for granted and that the people closest in your heart can also be the ones to hurt you most. The past two years have shown me that much with my family and all. I've come to learn to be more thankful for my closest friends and all they've done for me through the years. You all know who you are, I hope.
All in all, I just pray that '09 will be a much better year than '08, for everyone. I won't say I hope that things will change for the better for sure, coz I think that's a given. However, I would want to say this. Everybody has their choices and that means you can choose your path in life. Everybody has that choice and the choice to do good or bad, but I think the most important thing is that you choose how you view your life. You can choose to see things in a positive light or a negative light. I've always been able to find a way to make things sound better when people talk to me about their problems and situations, consoling them and whatnot, but I've never been able to do the same for myself, never affording myself to see that light at the end of the tunnel. Maybe this year, I'll make that change in myself and finally learn to see my life in a better light.
I don't know why I did this post, I truly don't. But I had a bad dream last night and maybe that caused me to reflect a little bit on the past and all that's happened. It doesn't stop the hurt and anger, but these emotions can be curbed and restrained. It isn't necessary to let such emotions and feelings get the better of you. I guess I should learn to try channeling such negativity into more productive means and using it to focus instead. Or at least much more so than I've been able to the past few months, without letting my mind stray and flare.
For those looking for my usual posts of my daily doings, I'm sorry for the lack of it, though I'm sure some people will deem this post as "emo". But trust me, it isn't. I just realized that I'm really lucky for what I have. And I also realized that I should treasure what I have more. Both the tangible and intangible.
Alright, I've got to get ready for book-in tonight. Training schedule this week sounds bad but I'm sure I'll survive. I always have.
Mimosa: Study hard okay! ((:
Udders: WHEN ARE WE MEETING NEXT! ((:
got around to thinking @ 11:38 AM
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