Just how long before this goes down?
Bits & Pieces
Friday, May 29, 2009
Trackspin: Adele - Chasing Pavements.
I realised that my typing isn't very good when I lack sleep. Motor functions seem to slow down when people don't get adequate rest, no?
Ever had a day when you woke and thought to yourself maybe you'd be better off dead? I'm tired as heck from everything. Every little thing. It's all just so darn irritating but I choose not to voice it out specifically and yet, I feel better than I did before, hiding behind this veil, like everything will be alright in the end, even when I'm not certain how things will turn out, not in the slightest. I truly wonder what's gotten into me. Is it just being carefree or is it ignorance and leaving things to burn? Are we truly our worst enemies? These inner conflicts aren't stopping and I doubt they're going to stop anytime soon.
It's been such a long time and still, remorse cuts in like a knife. I suppose friends that backstab you are truly hard to forgive. Talking to Becks last night over MSN was interesting enough that it brought back memories of just how long ago everything has been. Absolutely amazing. And I said something that I realised was true: I'm not the most forgiving person, despite being very patient. I believe in second chances, but I don't know just how forgiving I can ever truly be. I've come to see this part of me as something detrimental to my personal growth, not knowing how to let go and just let sleeping dogs lie. It's been such a journey, the past couple of years, learning everything I have, in church and otherwise. I just wish there was more in life to guide me.
Times like these, I'm truly thankful for Boomy, Val, Eugene, Darren, Matty, Carol, Zena, Bryandt. Especially Boomy. Thanks loads mate, for the talks, the advice and all. It's my fortune to be able to call you my friend and be able to learn from you things that I otherwise would not have learnt or ventured into. The talks on growing up and all, I suppose they always hit home when you're the one talking about it, which isn't always the case with others. Likewise, I think I truly am able to be myself in the presence of the people named above, including a few others too. Thank you all, for making a difference in my life thus far.
I think I'm on the verge of breaking down. It's all too much to take.
Maybe one day you'll know what it was like for me.
got around to thinking @ 1:23 PM
I realised that my typing isn't very good when I lack sleep. Motor functions seem to slow down when people don't get adequate rest, no?
Ever had a day when you woke and thought to yourself maybe you'd be better off dead? I'm tired as heck from everything. Every little thing. It's all just so darn irritating but I choose not to voice it out specifically and yet, I feel better than I did before, hiding behind this veil, like everything will be alright in the end, even when I'm not certain how things will turn out, not in the slightest. I truly wonder what's gotten into me. Is it just being carefree or is it ignorance and leaving things to burn? Are we truly our worst enemies? These inner conflicts aren't stopping and I doubt they're going to stop anytime soon.
It's been such a long time and still, remorse cuts in like a knife. I suppose friends that backstab you are truly hard to forgive. Talking to Becks last night over MSN was interesting enough that it brought back memories of just how long ago everything has been. Absolutely amazing. And I said something that I realised was true: I'm not the most forgiving person, despite being very patient. I believe in second chances, but I don't know just how forgiving I can ever truly be. I've come to see this part of me as something detrimental to my personal growth, not knowing how to let go and just let sleeping dogs lie. It's been such a journey, the past couple of years, learning everything I have, in church and otherwise. I just wish there was more in life to guide me.
Times like these, I'm truly thankful for Boomy, Val, Eugene, Darren, Matty, Carol, Zena, Bryandt. Especially Boomy. Thanks loads mate, for the talks, the advice and all. It's my fortune to be able to call you my friend and be able to learn from you things that I otherwise would not have learnt or ventured into. The talks on growing up and all, I suppose they always hit home when you're the one talking about it, which isn't always the case with others. Likewise, I think I truly am able to be myself in the presence of the people named above, including a few others too. Thank you all, for making a difference in my life thus far.
I think I'm on the verge of breaking down. It's all too much to take.
Maybe one day you'll know what it was like for me.
got around to thinking @ 1:23 PM
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