Just how long before this goes down?
Bits & Pieces
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Trackspin: Boyzone - I Love The Way You Love Me.
Nice old song. Am I getting too into sappy songs? Haha, brings some thoughts to mind.
It's a bad feeling to be sick. My throat's itching like crazy and I can't do anything about it! Being on MC for two days is utterly disgusting and boring because everybody else doesn't seem to be free or anything. AHHH. Tomorrow's CO vetting for the static display and no, I won't be around still either. I'l be home in bed either sleeping or online stoning once again. Damn it.
I'm tired and yet, sleep's getting hard to come by. I only fall asleep by tiring myself out nowadays. It just doesn't feel right.
Had a talk with Dad yesterday over lunch. First time I've actually talked to him about his work and all, how dissatisfied he was working under his new boss who just came in two years ago. But yeah, maybe yesterday was a good start to getting to know my family better, after all these years. I suppose some priorities should be set right in my life for now. I honestly don't know. I still feel a little envious when I see peoples' picture-perfect families. Perhaps it's all just wishful thinking on my part. The last few nights and days have given me much to think and reflect upon I guess. I should honestly be appreciative of what I have now, even if it isn't very much. But hey, at least I have a bare little bit of something and that can't be worse than having 100% of nothing. That much I know. Running away isn't the answer anymore I suppose. Time will tell the answers.
Took a really expensive cab ride this evening for practice. Realised that I most likely have dropped my zippo on the cab while getting out when I riding shotgun in Addy's car for supper. Darn it. But still, I guess this incident does speak to me on a slightly deeper level than just losing something. Sure, it was a present with sentimental value, but perhaps putting those old feelings and cares aside would be the best for me. It meant a lot because it was a present, but yeah, no point crying over spilt milk now. Time to start afresh. Shall go scout for a new zippo soon.
Currently considering between the Crumpler 6 or 7 Million Dollar Home and the Oakley Surf Pack 5.0. Verdict given has been Oakley. So I guess Oakley FTW this time. Maybe I'll get the Crumpler 7 Million Dollar Home when money's more accessible. Not a must for it, as long as the Oakley has a compartment big and well-padded enough to hold a tube which is 2/3 the length of a Pringles can and equal in diameter. Heh.
I can hardly wait for the weekend to arrive so I can shoot more pictures as well as for Monday to arrive. I'm just too eager for it. But it's going to be such a once in a lifetime thing I think. Ah well.
Sometimes, committing suicide seems so close to being accomplished. Temptation, temptation. And no, I'm not talking about suicide literally. Metaphorically-speaking only. At least for this time.
I think I should be trying to get some sleep now. I really need to rest up.
got around to thinking @ 12:06 AM
Nice old song. Am I getting too into sappy songs? Haha, brings some thoughts to mind.
It's a bad feeling to be sick. My throat's itching like crazy and I can't do anything about it! Being on MC for two days is utterly disgusting and boring because everybody else doesn't seem to be free or anything. AHHH. Tomorrow's CO vetting for the static display and no, I won't be around still either. I'l be home in bed either sleeping or online stoning once again. Damn it.
I'm tired and yet, sleep's getting hard to come by. I only fall asleep by tiring myself out nowadays. It just doesn't feel right.
Had a talk with Dad yesterday over lunch. First time I've actually talked to him about his work and all, how dissatisfied he was working under his new boss who just came in two years ago. But yeah, maybe yesterday was a good start to getting to know my family better, after all these years. I suppose some priorities should be set right in my life for now. I honestly don't know. I still feel a little envious when I see peoples' picture-perfect families. Perhaps it's all just wishful thinking on my part. The last few nights and days have given me much to think and reflect upon I guess. I should honestly be appreciative of what I have now, even if it isn't very much. But hey, at least I have a bare little bit of something and that can't be worse than having 100% of nothing. That much I know. Running away isn't the answer anymore I suppose. Time will tell the answers.
Took a really expensive cab ride this evening for practice. Realised that I most likely have dropped my zippo on the cab while getting out when I riding shotgun in Addy's car for supper. Darn it. But still, I guess this incident does speak to me on a slightly deeper level than just losing something. Sure, it was a present with sentimental value, but perhaps putting those old feelings and cares aside would be the best for me. It meant a lot because it was a present, but yeah, no point crying over spilt milk now. Time to start afresh. Shall go scout for a new zippo soon.
Currently considering between the Crumpler 6 or 7 Million Dollar Home and the Oakley Surf Pack 5.0. Verdict given has been Oakley. So I guess Oakley FTW this time. Maybe I'll get the Crumpler 7 Million Dollar Home when money's more accessible. Not a must for it, as long as the Oakley has a compartment big and well-padded enough to hold a tube which is 2/3 the length of a Pringles can and equal in diameter. Heh.
I can hardly wait for the weekend to arrive so I can shoot more pictures as well as for Monday to arrive. I'm just too eager for it. But it's going to be such a once in a lifetime thing I think. Ah well.
Sometimes, committing suicide seems so close to being accomplished. Temptation, temptation. And no, I'm not talking about suicide literally. Metaphorically-speaking only. At least for this time.
I think I should be trying to get some sleep now. I really need to rest up.
got around to thinking @ 12:06 AM
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