Just how long before this goes down?
Bits & Pieces
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Trackspin: The Veronicas - When It All Falls Apart.
Currently listening to them. Quite upbeat stuff. Reminds me that I need to practice bass more often. More importantly, I find my self needing a 5-stringer. How ironic. I gave up my Jazz V for the EBMM and now, I need a 5 again. Damn it. Stupid songs. If only I can sell it off quick and get the Jaime White from Ken. UGH.
I've been sleeping really late and waking up even later than usual. Suddenly my body clock's sleeping hours have shifted over to 5am-1pm as my sleep zone. Gosh. This is definitely not good at all. Time to start some changes maybe.
Been thinking a whole lot lately, about work and about the future. I really want to get into photography full-time but then again, market's starting to get saturated with newcomers with DSLRs who can take good pictures too. I just don't stand out from the rest I guess. Sigh. There's so much going on at home that it's the worst place I could be in for the whole day. I'd much rather be out with Kelvin and Shawn shooting pictures just to occupy my mind, or be out with the Udders or other select church people. Honestly, I'm getting tired from everything.
Concamp is coming up, knocking right on our doors soon. And I'm not the least bit prepared. At least not like other years. I feel so bare this year, in going for camp. Things just don't seem right with me going this year. I don't know why.
I came across the eventuality that I'll leave ED and playing bass to focus on my photography sometime in the future. There's just no way that I can juggle both, considering how most weekends would end up in jobs for me and with sessions and all, it's just going to be quite impossible. Especially when dates for jobs are set way in advance, but session dates aren't even confirmed for the longest time sometimes. Suddenly, ED doesn't feel like home anymore. Is this how Bernard and Darren felt before? I'm just wondering and maybe an overactive mind isn't the best thing to have when I have a lot of free time. There are reasons for me feeling this way of course and I'm sure of at least one or two reasons, which shall not be disclosed on this page.
After last week, I kind of figured, there is no right time. There isn't a right time for a specific something at times, you just have to convince yourself that by doing that little something, things will take a change and hopefully for the better. Kind of retarded I guess, but I've been having too many mixed thoughts as of late..
got around to thinking @ 10:26 AM
Currently listening to them. Quite upbeat stuff. Reminds me that I need to practice bass more often. More importantly, I find my self needing a 5-stringer. How ironic. I gave up my Jazz V for the EBMM and now, I need a 5 again. Damn it. Stupid songs. If only I can sell it off quick and get the Jaime White from Ken. UGH.
I've been sleeping really late and waking up even later than usual. Suddenly my body clock's sleeping hours have shifted over to 5am-1pm as my sleep zone. Gosh. This is definitely not good at all. Time to start some changes maybe.
Been thinking a whole lot lately, about work and about the future. I really want to get into photography full-time but then again, market's starting to get saturated with newcomers with DSLRs who can take good pictures too. I just don't stand out from the rest I guess. Sigh. There's so much going on at home that it's the worst place I could be in for the whole day. I'd much rather be out with Kelvin and Shawn shooting pictures just to occupy my mind, or be out with the Udders or other select church people. Honestly, I'm getting tired from everything.
Concamp is coming up, knocking right on our doors soon. And I'm not the least bit prepared. At least not like other years. I feel so bare this year, in going for camp. Things just don't seem right with me going this year. I don't know why.
I came across the eventuality that I'll leave ED and playing bass to focus on my photography sometime in the future. There's just no way that I can juggle both, considering how most weekends would end up in jobs for me and with sessions and all, it's just going to be quite impossible. Especially when dates for jobs are set way in advance, but session dates aren't even confirmed for the longest time sometimes. Suddenly, ED doesn't feel like home anymore. Is this how Bernard and Darren felt before? I'm just wondering and maybe an overactive mind isn't the best thing to have when I have a lot of free time. There are reasons for me feeling this way of course and I'm sure of at least one or two reasons, which shall not be disclosed on this page.
After last week, I kind of figured, there is no right time. There isn't a right time for a specific something at times, you just have to convince yourself that by doing that little something, things will take a change and hopefully for the better. Kind of retarded I guess, but I've been having too many mixed thoughts as of late..
got around to thinking @ 10:26 AM
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