Just how long before this goes down?
Bits & Pieces
Monday, January 4, 2010
Trackspin: Train – Hey Soul Sister.
Changed my module colours today, as well as tightened the wire. Now it's starting to hurt and annoy me again. The things I have to put up with. At least I'm happy with how the colours turned out. HAHA. (:
Took a short afternoon nap, then decided against round2. Spent the time looking through my E61 and read through my messages. I realised that I've kept messages from both birthdays spent in NS, and other important messages too. Reading through my inbox has left me a little nostalgic and I wish to thank all of you for having been there for me through the ups and downs as friends. (: And to especially important people like the Udders and Tric, thanks a million for keeping me sane in my crazy world at times. Love you all too much too begin to comprehend how life would be without you all.
Christmas is quickly coming to an end. It's passed so quickly this year, just coming and going, taking along with it any hope that I'd feel any form of joy at the festivities. It's just so weird because I never thought that Christmas and the new year could have just slipped right by me like this. However, I guess somehow, I got lost in translation and missed everything that happened lately. Too much of having my head up in the clouds maybe, but perhaps more truthfully is the fact that I've been so caught up with work during December. I never did have much time to myself in December, not being able to organise basketball, nor keep to the idea of getting on the Singapore Flyer, which has been long overdue for me. While it has been fun borrowing Mike's 5D and lenses, it has left me a little jaded with my own equipment. But I just gotta make do for now. Everything in it's time.
I'm feeling quite at a loss lately. I don't feel the urge to snap a lot, not after the disastrous 2nd photographer wedding shots I came up with. I don't know, maybe it's just that my self-confidence has taken a severe hit. Same thing has happened with singing. Maybe it's because there is a severe lack of bassists around but I figured I miss singing so much that I wouldn't mind not playing bass just to get to sing a song or two. I've just realised that because of things like these, I haven't taken my camera out on certain occasions that I should have the past week. Also, I haven't touched my bass for the longest time, since Confirmation Camp. I'm actually contemplating asking the kids to just cancel the jam session and do my own one with people I'd rather be playing with. I'm sorry but it's just that I don't feel motivated to play at all, due to a multitude of reasons. One of them being that I feel like I'm not an adequate-enough bassist. Maybe I need time to get myself out of this rut. Cedric wants to play for the January session so that's going to him already, I'm just going to hang around and see what needs help with. Nothing new there I guess.
Today has been bugging me with an issue. I figure that maybe you're angry at me for spilling out some stuff despite me being the one who said what's done is done and kept to that night, but I think the point is that we all care enough that amongst the group of us, I'd like to keep things open and not hide behind any facade. I don't know, maybe I can't deal with the fact that two people I trust my life with are dealing with issues like that and yet, I can't do anything to help make things better, even though I know I'm not in any position to do so in the first place. I guess I'll just sit this out and keep myself occupied with other things. You never know how much someone cares until you sacrifice that person's concern. I guess we never know what we have until we give it away.
I've been told the past day or two that I'm full of nonsense. I suppose that I am, and sometimes, hide behind this facade, trying to tell myself to take a look at the lighter side of things, in spite of problems and all. I truly hope that I don't seem like a fool to people who see me as trying to run away from my problems. I guess there's always more to life and we can take things light-heartedly to ease the pain and sufferings we bear daily. Sure, there are times to be serious and responsible, but the rest of the time, I hope I can choose to be more optimistic and look past my personal troubles. Hope that things work better that way, haha.
I really have this urge to play basketball on weekdays now too, simply because I can, and I haven't managed to get in much playtime in December. Making up for lost time?
Okay, enough of this random babbling, it's 9pm and I've yet to eat my dinner due to this post. Time to head down and think of what to eat. And honestly, thanks for those times you make me degenerate into a little kid. You know what I mean, haha. (:
got around to thinking @ 8:28 PM
Changed my module colours today, as well as tightened the wire. Now it's starting to hurt and annoy me again. The things I have to put up with. At least I'm happy with how the colours turned out. HAHA. (:
Took a short afternoon nap, then decided against round2. Spent the time looking through my E61 and read through my messages. I realised that I've kept messages from both birthdays spent in NS, and other important messages too. Reading through my inbox has left me a little nostalgic and I wish to thank all of you for having been there for me through the ups and downs as friends. (: And to especially important people like the Udders and Tric, thanks a million for keeping me sane in my crazy world at times. Love you all too much too begin to comprehend how life would be without you all.
Christmas is quickly coming to an end. It's passed so quickly this year, just coming and going, taking along with it any hope that I'd feel any form of joy at the festivities. It's just so weird because I never thought that Christmas and the new year could have just slipped right by me like this. However, I guess somehow, I got lost in translation and missed everything that happened lately. Too much of having my head up in the clouds maybe, but perhaps more truthfully is the fact that I've been so caught up with work during December. I never did have much time to myself in December, not being able to organise basketball, nor keep to the idea of getting on the Singapore Flyer, which has been long overdue for me. While it has been fun borrowing Mike's 5D and lenses, it has left me a little jaded with my own equipment. But I just gotta make do for now. Everything in it's time.
I'm feeling quite at a loss lately. I don't feel the urge to snap a lot, not after the disastrous 2nd photographer wedding shots I came up with. I don't know, maybe it's just that my self-confidence has taken a severe hit. Same thing has happened with singing. Maybe it's because there is a severe lack of bassists around but I figured I miss singing so much that I wouldn't mind not playing bass just to get to sing a song or two. I've just realised that because of things like these, I haven't taken my camera out on certain occasions that I should have the past week. Also, I haven't touched my bass for the longest time, since Confirmation Camp. I'm actually contemplating asking the kids to just cancel the jam session and do my own one with people I'd rather be playing with. I'm sorry but it's just that I don't feel motivated to play at all, due to a multitude of reasons. One of them being that I feel like I'm not an adequate-enough bassist. Maybe I need time to get myself out of this rut. Cedric wants to play for the January session so that's going to him already, I'm just going to hang around and see what needs help with. Nothing new there I guess.
Today has been bugging me with an issue. I figure that maybe you're angry at me for spilling out some stuff despite me being the one who said what's done is done and kept to that night, but I think the point is that we all care enough that amongst the group of us, I'd like to keep things open and not hide behind any facade. I don't know, maybe I can't deal with the fact that two people I trust my life with are dealing with issues like that and yet, I can't do anything to help make things better, even though I know I'm not in any position to do so in the first place. I guess I'll just sit this out and keep myself occupied with other things. You never know how much someone cares until you sacrifice that person's concern. I guess we never know what we have until we give it away.
I've been told the past day or two that I'm full of nonsense. I suppose that I am, and sometimes, hide behind this facade, trying to tell myself to take a look at the lighter side of things, in spite of problems and all. I truly hope that I don't seem like a fool to people who see me as trying to run away from my problems. I guess there's always more to life and we can take things light-heartedly to ease the pain and sufferings we bear daily. Sure, there are times to be serious and responsible, but the rest of the time, I hope I can choose to be more optimistic and look past my personal troubles. Hope that things work better that way, haha.
I really have this urge to play basketball on weekdays now too, simply because I can, and I haven't managed to get in much playtime in December. Making up for lost time?
Okay, enough of this random babbling, it's 9pm and I've yet to eat my dinner due to this post. Time to head down and think of what to eat. And honestly, thanks for those times you make me degenerate into a little kid. You know what I mean, haha. (:
got around to thinking @ 8:28 PM
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